{"id":41,"date":"2010-07-13T22:45:11","date_gmt":"2010-07-13T22:45:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/?p=41"},"modified":"2010-07-13T22:51:01","modified_gmt":"2010-07-13T22:51:01","slug":"i-miss-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/?p=41","title":{"rendered":"I miss you!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Your mom sent me a picture of you today.\u00a0 It’s a really nice picture, in it your smiling.\u00a0 I like that.<\/p>\n

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Jason, I miss his smile<\/p><\/div>\n

I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, that in and of itself is nothing new though really now is it?\u00a0 I’ve also been thinking a lot about the relationship advice you gave me once.\u00a0 When I first read that IM I thought your way of thinking was a little strange since relationships take time to evolve to that point.\u00a0 Then I met someone and all of a sudden it made so much sense to me!<\/p>\n

I wish you were here so we could talk about this.\u00a0 I miss having you around, especially when I feel as if I need you the most.\u00a0 I know it’s terribly selfish of me, I’m not the only one who’s missing you these days.\u00a0 Like your mom.\u00a0 I like your mom, she’s really nice!\u00a0 She’s been a wonderful source of strength for me trough all of this.\u00a0 Countless other people have been nothing short of amazing as well.\u00a0 Hearing from your mom makes it a little easier to cope.\u00a0 The one year anniversary of your death is creeping up on me real fast these days.<\/p>\n

I’m not sure how I’m going to handle that.\u00a0 Feels like it was only yesterday some days.\u00a0 Others\u00a0 feel as if it’s been longer then that, if that makes any sense?\u00a0 I finally got around to getting a picture of you printed.\u00a0 It’s hanging up on my wall in my bedroom.\u00a0 It’s comforting to me, feels like your closer then you really are.\u00a0 Sometimes I can almost sense your presence giving me strength when I feel like I have none left.\u00a0 Thank you for that, I love you!\u00a0 I miss you so much Jason, and I always will.<\/p>\n

Love,<\/p>\n

Steph<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Your mom sent me a picture of you today.\u00a0 It’s a really nice picture, in it your smiling.\u00a0 I like that. I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, that<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-41","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-open-letters-to-jason"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/41","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=41"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/41\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/41\/revisions\/46"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=41"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=41"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/notafraidofyourpain.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=41"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}