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Things aren’t always what they seem…

February 13, 2011 Awareness, Deep thoughts with Steph, I'm a survivor, Misc No comments

So I came clean about my depression.  To the whole freaking world.  As I am quite fond of saying: “go big or go home” right?  Although I have to say that it was strangely freeing above all else.  Except one person was keep in the dark, until I seen them Wednesday past.  I can’t totally recall exactly what they said but it was something to the effect of:

” I can’t believe you’re having a hard time, you look better then I’ve ever seen you!”   (granted I showered, threw on some mascara and French braided my hair.  Apparently I clean up real good 😉 ) Perhaps they’ve read David Hume’s Essays, Moral and Political, 1742, include:  “Beauty in things exists merely in the mind which contemplates them.”  In any case, they’re very sweet.

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The darker side of hell.

February 2, 2011 Misc, Videos No comments

I’m stealing borrowing taking inspiration from someone I admire and respect. Who wrote this on facebook:

“I have come to the conclusion that over the past two years I have come into a bit of a problem: Me.
Its like a skipping record that never gets into the next groove. I lost my aunt, my wife and my grandma all in one year… who would not be …affected by these big life changes?
But guess what? Life goes on, and I need to participate. I need to be a part of. I am so much more than my work. I am Mr. B and I need to snap the hell out of this, right here, right now. [baby steps]
I am that guy who will come running if you need help… but what about Mr. B? How do I fix him?
Well, first off I do something really crazy, like get honest on facebook of all places. I come clean. I tell the truth, and the truth of the matter is I hurt and have been hurting for a very. long. time.
I feel a change is coming… starting this weekend.”

That, well that was pretty ballsy.

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Posting and submissions

January 28, 2011 Misc No comments

Well hello there supporters of NAOYP 🙂

I get some lovely comments via facebook and some brutally honest, gut wrenching, heart breaking one’s as well.

I’m trying to create a new user account that says something to the effect of private or whatever.  A lot of people feel safe sharing things with me and would like to be able to have the balls (proverbial or otherwise) to share their secrets, their pain, their thoughts and so forth.  I think it’s important for some of these comments to be posted so that others can realize that they are:

NOT ALONE


After all that’s really the whole point of this foundation: To spread the word, awareness, hope and above all else: To help kill the stigma like the useless bitch that it is.

So on that note, please know that ANYTHING that anyone tells me is 100% confidential.  Privacy is of the utmost importance, even more so when dealing with such a touchy subject like suicide.  I take privacy and confidentially VERY seriously.  I have signed waivers and  contracts for IMAlive in the same regard.  When you are hurt and desperate for help, no one wants their pain to be splashed all over the place.

So that being said:  If there ever comes a time you would like to comment on a blog post, share your own story of survival (whether you attempted suicide and survived or have survived the death of a loved one) -or- you want to share the story of a loved one that you have lost, anonymously please feel free to do so!

All stories/memorial pages/comments sent via e-mail/facebook/twitter will be posted anonymously unless you specifically request that your name be used.  Otherwise it will not.  That’s my promise to each and every one of you.

hope @ notafraidofyourpain .com

-Steph